Love & Marriage...

My feelings on Love and Marriage....

The ultimate raw and true form of Love is God. He is Love.

Now how do we as humans produce love? I don't know. I think we know it is vital for our existence so we seek it out by any way, shape and form yet not knowing truly how to love others ourselves.

Now Marriage on the other hand I think is the one act that calls for us as humans to truly lay down ourselves and give fully into a trusting bond. It is truly jumping into the unknown with the person you believe is the one most responsible and caring of you......

Now when you are a single woman, like myself and you are in a huge city filled with other singles like yourself you would think it would not be so bad finding a girlfriend or a boyfriend... right? WRONG!!! This is a very bad city to find your mate.... It's hard to not have high standards as you are trying to strive and become someone yourself and then not to expect the same thing from a prospective mate. It is also a city where since everyone is single others do not feel the need to hurry and get married because no one is really married around you.

It sucks! Love - love is draped with all these undeserving disguises and is masked with confusion. It is all confusing. Something that should be simple becomes complex and then we buy into whatever lie to make it easier and more convenient to be in a relationship with someone who is confused and could love you but won't because there is no rush, no pressure.... It's maddness!!!

And I am tired. I just want to love someone simply because I love them and consistantly choose to love them because it is simple. And I want someone to love me just the same. I want to really dig someone and them to really dig me. What is complexed about that?

It is time. Enough is enough. Bullshit is Bullshit. Waiting is waiting but I am ready Lord. Please send them now.

Thank you,

-J.