Okay so here I am u little irritated that my hair is not looking as hot as I would love it to look. I worked out last night and now today of course it is coarse! Not polished and layered....
I don't want to sound like a typical black woman trying to hide her ethnic identity but I am not sure of what to do with my hair! I want to be able to workout get my body right and for my hair to stay sexy (of course this is my interpretation based off the fact that black beauty is still compared to and in reference to what white beauty is - but anyway). I enjoy having and afro when it is time for an afro buut at the same time if I want to have straight hair flowy etc I want to be able to do that as well. Then comes the pride of not using fake hair or weave, not being "unbeweavable" as I like to peg the term but now I am just not sure.
I am a woman who likes to have my cake and eat it to. Now not the whole cake, just a slice I mean shyt it's my cake how much sense does it make not to eat a piece of your own cake??? HELLO!!! Anyway what I am trying to say is that I enjoy having different options with my hair. I want to be able to do what I want with my hair and be able to workout. I do not what to have to give up a nice body for nice looking hair (my hair) or give up nice looking hair for a nice body. There has to be a way to have both!!
I will be investigating this until I find it. I may have to spend money on weave or eventually go au natural but either way I will find out the best option for me to be able to enjoy having a nice figure and having nice hair and style. This will require patience ... my next topic...
When I typically right on my blog I am conveniently at my desk at work.... What is slightly disturbing is that I have time to write on this blog. Which ultimately means I am not working. But is it that I am not working because my ass is lazy and procrastinating or is it that I am really just sitting here with no work to do. AH HA!! Mon ami! It is the latter! There isn't enough work for me to stay busy. So while at work I do my own work and live a few different lives, I have even sent out resumes to other prospective companies to work for (so sadd I know).
Anyway though in the midst of it all I am trying to be patient. I am trying to figure out what to do with this company. I am not going to stay here for ever, but I also need to be patient for the possible blessing to come to fulfillment here. Sometimes I forget the saints of old had to wait a very long time before they saw the amazing successes that they are associated with now.
I too will have to learn how to wait my turn and exercise this strength not just for my own good but also as a rite of passage.
Anyway the last thing I wanted to talk about was that now that I am blogging I am noticing other peoples blogs. Of course as I am looking at there's I am like "dang, I wouldn't mind having that on my blog" or "Wow! look at their blog, mine is so bland... :-( " but I am encouraging myself that although challenging yourself to stretch and try new things and suck at them possibly is a good thing, because it builds character I am telling myself that ultimately do not compare, learn from others but stay true to you.
Blogging is an outlet for me to express myself, Whatever is in my mind at the time comes out and I get to see the thread of my thought process as well as analyze my writing style. This is more what my blogs essence is about because I want to be a producer and writer so ultimately I have to write. It is actually an asset to me. Not to say I will not push myself to put some tweaks on the blogs page here and there but I will stay true to myself and my style.
I am a writer and producer. Thank you!
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