What makes you happy?

This is a crazy time....

I am having issues figuring out what makes me happy! I am ready to live a different life. But I am trying to live wisely. Can the two be done?

What needs to be done? I want to live successfully, creatively and to travel! I what a partner! To me it seems so simple!

Work, work hard, work on my own schedule, look nice, feel good, live and love someone special who will love me back. Give to others, live and love the forgotten!! Make images move, write, design, sing, perform, dance, be technical!!!

I do not know what this life wants to take from me! Life is moving. It is always progressing why should it hold me back!?! Why should I not be able to progress? Why can't I move forward? 

I want my own space! No more with other people or in a space where I cannot stretch out! I fear that I am jumping the gun but I am tired of this shit! I want to move!!!!! I want to live life the way I see it in my mind! The way it feels natural to me! 

Online typing, researching! Taking Pictures, Writing books, films, sitting in the sun, meeting other people who are trying to move forward... There is a time for reaping and sowing... What period am I in?

I do not want to miss my harvest time due to the fact that I wasn't patient enough at the same time Lord don't provoke me or test my patience. I am only a man!!! I was fearfully and wonderfully made for a reason! 

I have to go......

-J. 

Getting Back up on it.....

These days I am taking everyday as it's self. Everyday will get it's on identity and be given the respect it deserves. Monday March 16th will be Monday March 16th. It will not be Monday March 9th.

There has been sooo many things happening in my life while living in NYC. On one hand it is all a blur and days and weeks collide into each other and then on the other hand I am living a more lively life then ever before, then most of my family and friends who do not get to live in this crazy town.

But what is it about being human that makes us never satisfied enough with what we have. It is an amazing ability to know and feel that there is more satisfaction in living and there is another level of success or achievement to reach. Hence why we are never satisfied. However, what if we actually let go and be content with were we are? What would that equal? Hmmm.....

For me that would equal: being fine with a Mon - Friday 10am - 7pm job. It would equal me being fine with living with my grandparents as a 27 year old adult. It would equal me being content with not making enough money to save a good amount of money and be able to live a more prosperous life. It would equal a grand scheme of things....

So no I am not satisfied. I am reserved and see no need right now to fight back.... I am reserved. I have faith that things will finally come together and that I will be able to make more money, be more fulfilled emotionally, physically, psycologically , mentally, etc. I am trying to do a lot these days.... I need help doing them. I want to do many things and I don't need to do everything all at once but I would like to do more than one thing at a time. And yet when it is time for me to do just one thing and focus on one thing. I pray and believe that I will be fully prepared to do so.

Anyway... It is 12:18pm and I have to figure out how to exercise the next 7 hours to work in my favor and I can get the best out of that time frame... Yippee!! ;-)

Time is of the Essence....

It really is....

We all are given 24 hours in a day. Here is my typical schedule

7:00A.M. Wake up (or try to...)
7:00-7:45ishA.M. Quiet time with myself & God. Reading of the Scriptures, journal, pray, read etc.
7:45ish - 8:00A.M. Stretch, make my bed, gather my thoughts on my outfit & the weather, what day of the week it is etc...
8:00- 8:45A.M. Get ready- wash up, get dressed, comb hair, allocate my things, race out the door!
8:45-8:48A.M. Race to the train station (4 blocks & a long flight of stairs) catch train to Manhattan
8:48 - 9:17A.M. Ride the train, read, gather my thoughts, check my bank account, call people...
9:17 - 9:43ish A.M. Walk from Penn Station (34th & 8th) to work (45th & 9th) pick up breakfast
9:43ish -10:00A.M Get to work, turn on comp, make coffee, empty dishwasher, prep for the day
10:00 - 10:45A.M. Eat breakfast, answer phones, relax, check emails & Facebook etc...
10:45 - 10:48A.M. Review my "Things to Do" list decide not to rush on work and BS on the web some more.
10:50 - 11:30A.M. Blog, start day dreaming, check the time, act like I am working and wait till the big bosses need me to hustle
11:30 - 1:30/2:00P.M.ish REPEAT ABOVE - maybe file, etc... Gear up to get lunch..
2:00 - 2:45P.M. Eat lunch, answer phones, be on call for the big bosses. Check time.
2:45 - 3:30P.M. Chill out act like I am working, review "Things to Do" list.
3:30 - 5:00P.M. Pound out anything that needs to be done. If there really is nothing. Try working on my own personal projects via computer.
5:00 -5:45P.M. Once again review anything that I still need to do. Get it done.
5;45 - 6:10P.M.ish - start closing out, clean the kitchen area, make a "Things to Do" list for tomorrow, Check with Kyle to see if I can leave...
6:10 -6:45P.M. Open for any time to get out...
6:45 - 7:00P.M. Race to make FedEx/UPS/USPS drop off
7:00- 7:30P.M. Walk to Bally's sports club
7:30- 7:45P.M. Put workout clothes on
7:45- 8:00P.M. Stretch, warm up
8:00- 9:30P.M. GO HARD!! Workout!! Jam out to my ipod (which I need to update)
9:30 - 9:50P.M. Stretch, cool off, Get dressed
9:50 - 10:00P.M. Race to catch 10:05P.M. L.I.R.R. train at Penn Station
10:00- 10:05P.M. Make train get a good seat in the front of the train.
10:05 - 10:42P.M. Relax on train, make calls, read, eat, text, whatever....
10:42- 10:45P.M. Walk home. GET HOME!!!
10:45-11:10P.M. Relax, Eat something...
11:10 - 11:30P.M. Take a shower, wind down get ready for bed.
11:30 - 12:00A.M. check email, Facebook, talk on the phone, say hello to family. Go to Bed!
12:00A.M -7:00A.M. Sleep - and prepare to do it all over again, Lord willing...

So yeah where or when do I have time to still write a book, do research, do my breathing exercises, cook or prepare food for work to save on money. Go through my mail, read the tons of magazines I subscribe to, organize myself, finish my taxes and spend "quality time" with family and friends? Yeah there is only 24 hours in a day. And it goes by quicker than quick and especially in New York City - haha!! You gotta love it.

I do what I can and take advantage of every little moment I can....

Have a good day!!!
-J.

Bay, ba, ba, ba, BBAAABBYYY Don't blow me AWWAAYYY....

So for some reason this morning I have Solange Knowles song stuck in my head! I have to admit that I saw a peek of the video for this song cause one of my industry peoples worked on the video and he knows the director so he got a peek and in turn I got a peek.... yada yada yada...

And for one thing I definitely like that Solange sounds grown on this song. She doesn't sound like her big sister Beyonce (which I love). She sounds like herself. I think as an audience we are being able to participate with Solange more now that she is coming out as the grown ass woman she. I mean for Christ sake she is a mama!!

Anyway, another thing that I love about the video is that her weave is on point! The Bomb! I am looking into her style to see if I could get away with it for this summer. SSSHHIIITTT I can get away with it! Big hair and me ain't nothing to be messed with RRRRROCKK! That shit!

Anyway. Let us see what the day unfolds. I am a bit in a vulgar mood, not bad vulgar just kinda raw.... I will have to watch it cause at work these folks don't know what to thing when I get a lil hood, gully, silly.... whatever! But we will see. I have high hopes for the day. That it will be fun! It will be productive and that it will go by SUPER fast!!! Whhooo Hooo!!!

:-) Bay Ba, ba, Ba, BBBAABBBBYYYY Don't blow me AWWWAAAAYYYY!!!

Tender Love & Care

It is soo important to show the people you care about T.L.C.

For some it may be just relaxing with them and listening to them go over their thoughts. For others it maybe sitting to a home cooked meal and enjoying it together. For me, it is a massage...

As I am getting older I am beginning to be more aware of my body and it's needs. I cannot however attend to all of its needs at the same time and consistently. Somethings are left at the way side until the day or finances comes for me to be able to get it done and help my body. 

I need to eat more organic foods. I am working on that. I need to exercise regularly. I am working on that. I need to clean my body by detoxing more regularly and do facials or body cleanse etc... These things are more able to happen if I had the finances. Another thing that I do not have the finances for and I am in need of is a full body massage. 

I got one done about...... 7+ ..... years ago. So sadd, one thing I am noticing is that as I am getting older I cannot just suck it up anymore. I do need to make it to a massage therapist more regularly as well as find a man willing to rub my feet and my back when necessary. These are definitely at the top of my T.L.C. qualifiers. We all have our thing.... That is definitely mine. 

Peace, -J.